This is more of a landmark or bookmark of an event - but I noticed yesterday and more so today, I'm getting kind of OK!
I think I've finally got defense well enough down - or maybe I don't feel as pressured -- that I'm starting to look for submissions instead of looking for defense.
What's strange is when I was there Thursday, I didn't do that well - I thought because I had not been to class often in the preceding two weeks. Or maybe my heart wasn't in it during sparring after class, or the stamina requirement was higher.
But Saturday, Sunday, much better! I still got tapped often, but kept at it, and was grabbing things, moving in proper ways. I even did some things instinctually which a higher belt said he learned from!